Imposter Syndrome

Have you heard of imposter syndrome? I have. Usually, it's in reference to employment: "I know I'm not as competent as my colleagues/coworkers think I am. My success is just luck. The other shoe is gonna drop and they'll all find out how much of a fraud I am!"

I've also heard of it in reference to "adulting"... "I really don't feel competent in all these adult-ish kinds of things. I'm seriously just faking it all. Someone's going to find out that I'm just winging it." For real, these people need to realize we're all "just winging it."

But here's a new one: imposter syndrome in a relationship!

Have you ever been in a relationship where you think, "Is this for real? This too good to be true! This couldn't possibly be happening! Maybe I'm dreaming? *pinch* Nope, it's real.. but maybe I just dreamed I pinched myself."

But it really is real, it actually is happening, you're not dreaming, and you did just pinch yourself.

That's what happens in my head about every other time I look at my dear bearded darling!

It's been eight months since we met, almost seven since we married. And it's not always real to me. "Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy?"

But the reality is that no matter what anyone else may think, I'm head-over-heels grateful for this amazing man. And yes, sometimes it does feel unreal.